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Stop.
[ for his part, ray had done very little. he pushed some debris around aimlessly, for the most part. he did rescue his dinged-up espresso machine from what seemed to be the remains of his spectrometer, and he grips it tightly as he turns to face gideon. ]
If you're here to tell me how stupid I am, just-- I've heard it all, Gideon. And if I could go back and change it, I wouldn't. I'd do the exact same thing over and over again until he chose help, OK? Yes, it was worth it. Yes, I get that dying hurts my friends. And Sarah. And I'm sorry that's a fact, it doesn't make me happy to see people upset.
[ he hadn't meant to go on that long, and now ray realizes he's just clutching the stupid coffee machine to his chest. he tosses it into the pile of junk in the corner. ]
Call it selfish or arrogant, but I needed to be better. Better than we are at home. I needed to try.
[ for his part, ray had done very little. he pushed some debris around aimlessly, for the most part. he did rescue his dinged-up espresso machine from what seemed to be the remains of his spectrometer, and he grips it tightly as he turns to face gideon. ]
If you're here to tell me how stupid I am, just-- I've heard it all, Gideon. And if I could go back and change it, I wouldn't. I'd do the exact same thing over and over again until he chose help, OK? Yes, it was worth it. Yes, I get that dying hurts my friends. And Sarah. And I'm sorry that's a fact, it doesn't make me happy to see people upset.
[ he hadn't meant to go on that long, and now ray realizes he's just clutching the stupid coffee machine to his chest. he tosses it into the pile of junk in the corner. ]
Call it selfish or arrogant, but I needed to be better. Better than we are at home. I needed to try.
I wasn't going to say that.
( She had stopped, and there was even a few seconds of silence before she spoke.
Gideon straightens herself up, resting her hands on the table she'd just righted. She can see what he'd said, knows why everyone had called it a stupid act.
It had hurt, knowing that Ray had died, not just in part to how it had happened. It would surprise some to know that she'd felt that, and that she cared for her team. Her family. The few people that she'd come to know and care for.
It had hurt when Ray had died, had saddened her and caused her worry -- caused her to keep checking until he'd returned. It also hurt to hear what he thought of himself )
I know why you did it. It wasn't arrogant, perhaps misguided doing it alone but... ( And there's a brief pause, something that's not normally in Gideon's speech. One of the slight differences from Wonderland's changing of her. She's thinking carefully on her words ) I'm pleased that you tried. I wish too that the outcome had been more favourable, but you needed to try.
( And there's a couple more seconds before Gideon adds )
Thank you.
( Small, honest. Telling? Gideon had mentioned to Ray once that she found this situation difficult, that Rip was important to her but she hadn't elaborated. As saddened as she was that what happened happened she's more pleased that someone tried to help Rip to begin with. It means a lot to her )
( She had stopped, and there was even a few seconds of silence before she spoke.
Gideon straightens herself up, resting her hands on the table she'd just righted. She can see what he'd said, knows why everyone had called it a stupid act.
It had hurt, knowing that Ray had died, not just in part to how it had happened. It would surprise some to know that she'd felt that, and that she cared for her team. Her family. The few people that she'd come to know and care for.
It had hurt when Ray had died, had saddened her and caused her worry -- caused her to keep checking until he'd returned. It also hurt to hear what he thought of himself )
I know why you did it. It wasn't arrogant, perhaps misguided doing it alone but... ( And there's a brief pause, something that's not normally in Gideon's speech. One of the slight differences from Wonderland's changing of her. She's thinking carefully on her words ) I'm pleased that you tried. I wish too that the outcome had been more favourable, but you needed to try.
( And there's a couple more seconds before Gideon adds )
Thank you.
( Small, honest. Telling? Gideon had mentioned to Ray once that she found this situation difficult, that Rip was important to her but she hadn't elaborated. As saddened as she was that what happened happened she's more pleased that someone tried to help Rip to begin with. It means a lot to her )
[ for his part, ray just speaks aloud in response, startled words coming out against his will-- ]
Oh... crap. [ wince. ] I should walk away. I should definitely just walk away right now.
[ the man says standing in place and not at all walking away... ]
Oh... crap. [ wince. ] I should walk away. I should definitely just walk away right now.
[ the man says standing in place and not at all walking away... ]
AND YET YOU'RE STILL STANDING HERE.
WONDER WHY THAT IS.
WONDER WHY THAT IS.
I can keep a secret.
[ spoiler alert no he can't ]
Scout's honor. I mean, I have a little experience with progeny having to deal with the fallout of my mistakes. And I know people with destinies they didn't ask for-- Wynonna's not a reincarnation of Wyatt or anything, right?
[ look it can't hurt to be sure ]
[ spoiler alert no he can't ]
Scout's honor. I mean, I have a little experience with progeny having to deal with the fallout of my mistakes. And I know people with destinies they didn't ask for-- Wynonna's not a reincarnation of Wyatt or anything, right?
[ look it can't hurt to be sure ]
I'm not really a fan of sugar cubes.
[ he pulls a face, insulted but not quite taking this seriously just yet as he cranks through the list of mirrors this might be. not leonard-- he's a cinnamon roll. not chronos-- he doesn't care about ray enough. not rip-- he'd accept ray's lack of ability to follow orders ever. sara, though. her mirror might be bored enough to mess with him. ]
So what do you go by over there? Gray Canary?
[ he pulls a face, insulted but not quite taking this seriously just yet as he cranks through the list of mirrors this might be. not leonard-- he's a cinnamon roll. not chronos-- he doesn't care about ray enough. not rip-- he'd accept ray's lack of ability to follow orders ever. sara, though. her mirror might be bored enough to mess with him. ]
So what do you go by over there? Gray Canary?
[ a canary? lord, no. if anything, he's the sly fox that catches the canary. ]
HERE'S JOHNNY :)
HERE'S JOHNNY :)
[ another scowl, before his face goes a bit blank. ray doesn't know any johns. he actually has very few actual friends outside his team, sarah's crew, and darcy.
oh, crap. he'd only spoken to blake on the network but he and darcy were spending more time together lately. ray scowls again, clenching his teeth before speaking. ]
Darcy and I are friends over here. I can't help what my mirror does.
oh, crap. he'd only spoken to blake on the network but he and darcy were spending more time together lately. ray scowls again, clenching his teeth before speaking. ]
Darcy and I are friends over here. I can't help what my mirror does.
[ gideon's words grab ray's attention. they aren't simply unexpected, they're ... exactly what he thought he'd wanted to hear. what he thought would lift some of the weight from his chest-- an acknowledgment that despite being misguided, his intentions had been good.
but his chest still feels too tight, his stomach still queasy. he's grateful, of course, and that it comes from gideon is actually no small thing. she doesn't speak words just to make people feel better, the way humans do. and yet the way she says them now seems very much human. ]
Oh. I-- I probably should have asked you for help, huh?
[ his own conciliation, of a sort. he nods then, a little late but only once he's released some of the tension he'd been holding onto. this is all a bit much, and the fact that it doesn't make him feel what he thought it would is going to take a bit more time to process. quieter, then: ]
I'm sorry for blowing up at you.
but his chest still feels too tight, his stomach still queasy. he's grateful, of course, and that it comes from gideon is actually no small thing. she doesn't speak words just to make people feel better, the way humans do. and yet the way she says them now seems very much human. ]
Oh. I-- I probably should have asked you for help, huh?
[ his own conciliation, of a sort. he nods then, a little late but only once he's released some of the tension he'd been holding onto. this is all a bit much, and the fact that it doesn't make him feel what he thought it would is going to take a bit more time to process. quieter, then: ]
I'm sorry for blowing up at you.
[ oh ray, he is not any of those people. nor does he associate with any of those people. ]
COLD. TRY CIRCLING BACK AROUND TO SOMETHING MORE RECENT, MISTER ED.
COLD. TRY CIRCLING BACK AROUND TO SOMETHING MORE RECENT, MISTER ED.
( His apology only earns him a nod, though she isn't ignoring it -- not purposely. Gideon simply is traversing something that she's never experienced before. Rip had snapped before, and she'd seen all manner of emotions from him but Rip and Ray were completely different. The outcome still stood -- Ray didn't need to apologise to her )
I wouldn't have been able to help.
( But, as much as it's its own story Ray doesn't need to hear about it now. It didn't help him, and it only posed its own set of problems.
Instead, Gideon steps away from her table, taking a few steps towards Ray )
But you do still have a team. Even if only some of the Legends are here there is always someone that you can ask for help from.
I wouldn't have been able to help.
( But, as much as it's its own story Ray doesn't need to hear about it now. It didn't help him, and it only posed its own set of problems.
Instead, Gideon steps away from her table, taking a few steps towards Ray )
But you do still have a team. Even if only some of the Legends are here there is always someone that you can ask for help from.
[ and bingo was his name-o ♪ ]
NOW THAT'S SOMETHING I HAVEN'T BEEN CALLED IN A VERY LONG TIME.
NOW THAT'S SOMETHING I HAVEN'T BEEN CALLED IN A VERY LONG TIME.
[ oh, now that is just precious. look at him recoil. adorable. ]
JOHN IS MY NAME. IT'S HIS, TOO.
I PREFER JOHNNY THESE DAYS.
JOHN IS MY NAME. IT'S HIS, TOO.
I PREFER JOHNNY THESE DAYS.
I know. I do. It's just...
[ for once, he's not lying about his motivations and it seems he can't communicate it clearly. not when nobody asks so much as assumes. he supposed he can't blame people for that, though. not when he's so often guilty of it himself. ]
Things got tense so fast when he came back. He shot Nate, and Sara showed up and she was ... she was in bad shape. We all just keep looking for fires to put out, but this isn't the Waverider. Time doesn't move, and...
[ he's rambling without direction and sighs heavily. it occurs to ray that he isn't sure what he's trying to say. it seems to happen a lot lately. and so something true comes out of him; something he hadn't realized he was carrying still. it isn't even entirely relevant, except for the fact that he feels guilt from it. ]
The first time I spoke to him here in Wonderland, I told him he wasn't a captain here.
[ for once, he's not lying about his motivations and it seems he can't communicate it clearly. not when nobody asks so much as assumes. he supposed he can't blame people for that, though. not when he's so often guilty of it himself. ]
Things got tense so fast when he came back. He shot Nate, and Sara showed up and she was ... she was in bad shape. We all just keep looking for fires to put out, but this isn't the Waverider. Time doesn't move, and...
[ he's rambling without direction and sighs heavily. it occurs to ray that he isn't sure what he's trying to say. it seems to happen a lot lately. and so something true comes out of him; something he hadn't realized he was carrying still. it isn't even entirely relevant, except for the fact that he feels guilt from it. ]
The first time I spoke to him here in Wonderland, I told him he wasn't a captain here.
Johnny, then. Sure, OK.
[ ...not as cool as doc but that's fine dude. you do you. ]
So are you one of the ones who's super duper loyal to the Queen and looking for something to get you points? Or is this just a social call?
[ ray can you take anything seriously ever pls ]
[ ...not as cool as doc but that's fine dude. you do you. ]
So are you one of the ones who's super duper loyal to the Queen and looking for something to get you points? Or is this just a social call?
[ ray can you take anything seriously ever pls ]
I'd like to know all of it.
( Gideon may have read everything that was on the network but there was so much more that didn't happen there -- everything in the world.
It was also very clear to Gideon that there was more that Ray was thinking or feeling than what he'd already shared. Had he ever shared any of it? )
( Gideon may have read everything that was on the network but there was so much more that didn't happen there -- everything in the world.
It was also very clear to Gideon that there was more that Ray was thinking or feeling than what he'd already shared. Had he ever shared any of it? )
[ johnny is loyal to the queen when it suits him. he's nowhere near as blindly devoted to a cause (or a person) as his counterpart is. ]
NOTHING SO PRECISE.
I'M BORED.
NOTHING SO PRECISE.
I'M BORED.
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